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[ They're just kind of looking at each other for a while, eyes locked and the space between them loaded with a hundred million unsaid things that John can't even begin to name, because they're mostly -- yes, well, sentiment and surely, Sherlock and him aren't starting in on that mess now, right? Shit. Lips pressed together in a tight line, he just tries joining the dots, making the pieces fit together. Moriarty had threatened, what, to kill him? You'd think the great Sherlock Holmes with his great, bloody brain could find another way around that than to swan-dive off Bart's rooftop -- though, obviously, it was all staged and only looked so incredibly convincing that John still has nightmares about it some nights, the bad ones, when he hasn't -- had enough to drink, presumably.

With a low groan, he reaches up and runs his palm down over his face, feeling suddenly exhausted enough to sleep on his feet. A long, exasperated exhalation and he bends down to pick up his bag, tumbled over from before and looks up at Sherlock, pretty much crouching at his feet. The man looks very tall and very thin and very real like that, doesn't he? Like you might actually be able to reach out and touch him. If you wanted to. John refrains, thank you very much. ]

So, everything basically went on as if nothing had changed, I was still in constant peril and you still managed to save my life, from beyond the bloody grave, too. [ A cock of his head as he gets up again, looking down at Sherlock sitting on the bench, bag slung over one shoulder. The gesture is followed by a slight scoff. ] That's impressive, Sherlock, very impressive. This might be your best one yet.

[ This might be your worst one yet, you idiot, don't ever do anything like it again, his eyes are saying, because everything changed. Sometimes, really, John Watson is too expressive for his own good and one such time is now, it seems. ]

Edited 2019-09-16 15:04 (UTC)

[ He watches John's face, trying to gauge his reaction while he waits for him to respond in words. The thing with John Watson is, in general his emotions tend to be written all over his face and in his body language. Disappointment, anger, happiness, excitement - he's a very transparent sort of person, for all the darkness he keeps hidden away from the world. During the past two years, he's stored the facts of John safely in his mind palace, trying to keep the memory of his face and his voice as distinctive as he could, as clear and realistic. All the same, watching him now is almost jarring.

There are so many nuances.

Expression softening a fraction, he tests out his weight against the ground, one foot, then the other. Steeling himself, he rises slowly to his feet, feeling every inch of his abused upper body as he straightens up. Though he doesn't quite manage his usual fluidity, the movement isn't as stiff as it could be. Sherlock is nothing if not stubborn. ]

I did what I had to do. [ He doesn't add, to keep you safe because John already knows, it's irrelevant. Besides, considering the self-abuse John's been indulging in for the better part of the first year following his fake suicide, it's hard to say exactly how well he's managed, isn't it? Instead, he pushes his hands inside his pockets and looks the other man over, eyes narrowed very slightly in thought. ] You moved out.

Yeah -- [ A bit preoccupied watching Sherlock getting to his feet, he only half-registers the comment. Although it's not something that would stand out to most people, probably, he has been fine-tuning his professional skills for the past year and a half, hasn't he, and so he notices. Even if things were ever rarely obvious around Sherlock and this certainly isn't either, John can tell. There's a stiffness to his movements, different from his usual, fluid transitions -- the other man was nothing if not all limbs in all directions before, yes? He remembers. And he thinks he remembers correctly, actually. He knows he does. However, once Sherlock's observation (obvious) settles, John abandons his own in favour of looking to the side, shifting his bag to the other shoulder and feeling suddenly -- what, shameful? Seriously? For God's sake. He licks his lips, only by sheer willpower keeping from clearing his throat again. ] Yeah, I -- Right after the funeral, I couldn't...

[ A shrug. Squaring his shoulders, he straightens up fully which isn't helping much now when Sherlock's also standing. Their eyes meet and he blinks a couple of times. He couldn't stand it there, all right. The smell of it, all Sherlock's things, the utter lack of -- yes, well, everything that made it more than a place before. He couldn't stand its four walls, he couldn't stand breathing the air, the feel of his mattress, the silence at night, the nightmares. He couldn't. It was like coming home from the war all over, wasn't it? When you walk with Sherlock Holmes, you see the battlefield. But as Mycroft was undoubtedly in on it as well, he ought to just shut the fuck up.

John swallows. ]

You've dropped by, then. [ A slight pause, hesitant. Hopeful. Jesus, he hates himself. ] Here to stay?

[ He only just manages not to shrug in response. Best not. Instead, he lets his gaze glide away, taking in their surroundings with what's amounting to a chronic sense of hyper-alertness. Sebastian Moran was, supposedly, the last of the lot. All the same, you can never be too sure - Moriarty's network, he's learned, was more than a spider's web, much, much more. It was a seemingly endless labyrinth of twists and turns, most of them illogical, created that way to prevent chain destruction. ]

Yep. [ He pops the 'p', then pauses, brain collecting data and discarding it, uselessly, because there's really nothing here of interest, apart from the man standing a few feet away from him. Huffing out his next exhalation, slightly irritated, he re-focuses. ] Mrs. Hudson might very well murder me herself if I don't. You should have heard her when she...

[ He trails off. Waves a hand in the air, mostly because it isn't very funny, is it? That she saw him and fainted, quite promptly, banging her head against the hallway floor. She'd been furious with him but surprisingly (shockingly), more so with herself. He'd been mostly concerned about the way her gaze had wavered for a moment, thinking that he'd managed to give her a concussion. No laughing matter, at her age. Her hip, fortunately, had survived the encounter undamaged. ]

Edited 2019-09-16 17:45 (UTC)

[ The idea of Mrs Hudson threatening Sherlock with fire and brimstone, were he to ever leave her household again is actually a rather amusing one and John feels the corner of his mouth quirk while he nods in understanding, yeah, he gets it. The picture. Not in full, but if Sherlock's staying put -- well, there might be time to connect the remaining dots at some point when they're not standing in Regent's Park on the brink of bloody dusk, dew falling all around them, Sherlock looking like a hobo and John looking like he needs a drink, which he quite frankly does. His daily tumbler of Scotch would be in order now. He could offer to cut his shift short, take Sherlock with him home to his new place or he could -- supposedly... he could...

With a frown, he turns the words over in his head for a couple of seconds, not really coming up with any satisfactory phrasings that don't sound halfway like he's coming on to the man, but hey. That would just bring them back to their first night at Angelo's and maybe that's really the best kind of beginning they could strive for, if they really are to revisit anything of what's happened between them before these two years of bloody hell. One eyebrow going up slightly, the quirk of his lip turns into something that would have been a smile in another day and time. ]

Do you think me following you home would give her a heart attack? Because, trust me, you're not sleeping on this bench tonight.

[ He watches John's face change, from that altogether terrible, tired hesitancy to something a little lighter, a little more familiar. The sight alone makes something inside him relax a fraction, a tension that he's been carrying around ever since getting back to London and being presented with John's file - thick, bursting with papers. He'd read it all, of course, read it carefully, once he realised the gravity of it. Of the consequences. He never thought -- but then again, he'd figured that death would be easy. A fact of life, little more.

He never thought.

At John's comment, he raises one eyebrow slightly in turn. You're not sleeping on this bench, he says, and there's something so incredibly complicated about it, about someone giving a damn after two years of nothing but his own company, his own priorities. Of getting by primarily for the sake of something else, something external to his own needs - to take down the next criminal cell, the next, the next. He swallows. ]

Well then. [ A nod down the path. ] Doctor's orders, yes?

[ With that, he sets off. He's carrying nothing at all, just the clothes on his back. He resists the urge to glance over his shoulder, though he can't quite help himself from listening for a set of familiar footsteps, following along. ]

Edited 2019-09-16 18:23 (UTC)

[ Doctor's orders, Sherlock says, reminding John -- perhaps in due time that he's actually here for professional purposes. Allowing the man to set off and get a head start only reluctantly, he fishes his work phone out of his pocket and texts Hugh, letting the team know that his job in Regent's Park's done, no issues to report and that he'll have to abandon shift (sorry, personal stuff, will explain later), planning to drop by with the bag the following evening.

Only once he's pocketed the phone again, does he look up, finding Sherlock a good stretch away, all back (no coat) and too-long hair and there's a slight hesitancy to the roll of his upper body with every step, so he's definitely in some pain. All things they'll have to deal with at some point, he foresees, knows. There are things you simply can't leave behind in whatever war zone you've been deployed to, especially if your body's bearing the brunt of it.

John's got a left shoulder, ask his old gunshot wound if you don't believe him.

Still, the sight of Sherlock walking away is so bloody familiar that it makes his stomach drop a little and he has to breathe deeply, really filling his lungs, before he shifts his bag a bit and breaks into a quick march in order to not -- what, get left behind? In that case today would just be the continuation of the past two years, wouldn't it, no change, same difference. Same damn difference.

No, he's not about to let that happen. ]

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