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[ Sherlock proceeds to word vomit very spectacularly. He'll tell you he's doing his deduction trick, but in fact he's just letting out steam because he's uncertain and John -- John can take it. He doesn't mind this either. Listening to what the other man is inquiring, would you do me (?) or some other, random fellow (?), answer being the former, check, he follows him with his eyes as he grabs the filling knife and pushes the eggs very, very aimlessly around the pan and then stalks off into the living room. He's not even sticking around to hear what John has to say in response, it he? Grandly typical. Grandly. Rolling his eyes, John lets his arms drop to his sides and follows him into the other room, after having turned the heat off the cooker completely, finding him standing behind his chair, near the window and it reminds John very forcefully of the night before, before they'd gotten into bed and he'd kissed -- his neck, the long stretch of skin covering the man's upper spine and he'd pressed his hand to the small of his back and it had been fine. Physical contact. It had been... nice.

He takes a deep breath, rests his hands on his hips and speaks to Sherlock's back first: ]

I'm talking about you and me and the sex we should definitely make a habit of. [ Because he wants there to be a them, right? He wants a Sherlock and John rather than a Sherlock and his friend slash colleague slash partner, John. He wants them to be just -- Sherlock and John. Being friends was good, but this holds the potential to be better and if Sherlock doesn't think so, well, then he's endlessly more stupid than John ever gave him credit for. Which is saying something, really. He bites his lower lip a long moment, then decides to hell with the eggs and breakfast and marches across the room, stopping next to Sherlock's chair, only half a step behind the other man. He could make a joke about the both of them needing to be tested for STDs now, thanks to this random, other fellow that Sherlock is addressing, but the timing feels off, so instead he hesitates only a second before reaching out and placing his hand between Sherlock's shoulder blades, his back tense and unapproachable through the multiple layers of bathrobe and shirt, not that this has ever deterred John earlier in the script. ] You're free to prove me wrong, but I really don't see any problems with this, Sherlock.

[ John follows him almost immediately and that alone is a relief because it's so familiar, it's the same as ever (ever, meaning the past one and a half year but it does sometimes seem like longer; no doubt, there's some connection here between the mind's temporal perception and event decoding slash management that he's not going to wonder about any further). We should definitely make a habit of it, John says, more or less, and he realises only now that those were the exact words he'd wanted to hear. Obviously, he could have figured that out if he'd had the time (the peace of mind) to properly think about it but as luck will have it, when it comes to things like this, his brain always act so stupidly deficient.

At the touch between his shoulder blades, he can feel himself visibly sag, tension leaving his upper body and settling very briefly in his hands, curling into fists for a second before uncurling again. He takes a moment longer to simply stare out of the window, thinking that it's so like John, this. Expecting things to be so simple. Sherlock knows habits - they're easily acquired, yes, but hard to be without. Certain habits, immensely so. He looks down, runs one hand through his hair quickly, then turns around slowly to face the other man. A slight smile and a raised eyebrow: ]

I'm not surprised. [ He finally just steps closer, reaching out and running his hand up John's side, his cable knit sweater slightly rough beneath his palm. He's warm, underneath. Well yes, obviously, seeing as he's not dead or undead or... He cuts that thought off before it runs away. ] Some risks, John, are extremely foolish. If we do this - [ His hand pauses, about to slide around, to the small of John's back. ] - then I won't hear any whinging when it goes haywire.

[ Though the words may be slightly harsh, there's an undercurrent of actual worry beneath because he knows what sort of life he leads, what his job requires and what it entails. John's accepted all of that before but they haven't actually... Well. To say there's been nothing to lose between them would be incredibly untrue, not to mention ridiculous. But surely, there's a difference still. Somewhere in the mix. ]

[ Turning around, fingers flexing into fists at his sides briefly before relaxing again, Sherlock sends him a small smile and a raised eyebrow, telling him about risks, about foolishness, about things going boom and it's sort of amusing how the other man addresses this like it's a phenomenon still to come, like it hasn't gone haywire from the beginning, like John wasn't strapped into a bloody bomb vest or gets kidnapped on a regular basis by Sherlock's own brother. Yes, it's sort of amusing how they're talking about their relationship like it hasn't been exactly like this (minus one single element, a very enjoyable element, too, but one element still) from the beginning. Well, that element and the resultant touching. They're doing well with the touching, he thinks and looks down at Sherlock's hand against his arm, sliding lower until it's making as if to pull him closer by the small of his back.

Sherlock asked him, back at the beginning, if he wanted to see more injuries and violent deaths and he'd been completely, utterly, brutally honest when he'd gasped out his oh God yes. Really, no filter, nothing. He'd embraced it without any restraints whatsoever and this, well, this is just an extension of that. He'd say the exact same thing all over again. However, he does elaborate when he replies, a slight smile at the corner of his mouth and both eyebrows raised: ]

With my nervous system, by medical assessment found to be shot, it's more likely I'll be cheering, you know.

[ John has lived and worked in the world's harshest, most dangerous environment, he knows danger, he knows what it looks like, how its consequences feels between your hands. He knows injury on a very personal scale and he knows death. Nothing (and he means absolutely nothing) Sherlock can dish out will be worse than the weight he still carries around in his army doctor title, minus perhaps Sherlock himself getting killed, that would be horrible and he's not going to think about it right now with Sherlock looking at him like that, but even Sherlock dying -- They'd have had this, nothing lasts forever and they'd have had their time, right?

This is their time. ]

[ I'll be cheering. Sherlock stares at him, unable to keep himself from thinking through worst case scenarios and coming up blank with regards to John - he oughtn't be in any of them. It's fine that he likes risks, that he likes danger, that's how they're compatible, isn't it. John craves it. Sherlock craves excitement, the way his blood rushes faster and his mind takes flight in the face of something particularly devious. Drugs. War. Hardly the same at all, but John's still telling him that he's seen enough by far to know what he's agreeing to and at this point, Sherlock realises he's beyond trying to tell him differently. Why would he, anyway? See for yourself, then, if you must. If you're so attracted to risk. ]

If you do that, people will talk.

[ Spoken with a tilt of his mouth, as he leans down and kisses him, hand tightening against John's side. He tastes like a new day, John, and while Sherlock isn't naive enough to believe that this won't complicate things beyond imagination further down the road, he can't - for the moment - bring himself to care. It would have been easier, granted, if John had simply perceived what they did last night as another case of experimentation, a springboard to a much, much wider dating pool. Yes, it would have also left Sherlock quite... dissatisfied but surely, wounds like that are easily mended, if not just ignored into oblivion. He slips his hand to the small of John's back, flattening his palm against him and pulling him closer. It's a long kiss, slower than last night. The contrast between the physical now - the warmth of John's lips, the feel of his body close to his - and the sense of future, of catastrophic inability lingering in his mind - is odd.

If they do this enough, perhaps one will push away the other, to some dark corner where at least, they won't have to stare it in the face for many months (years - ah, he's not that stupid) to come. ]

[ People already do.

Since the start, people have assumed that they were a couple, that Sherlock was his boyfriend. They've assumed that John was gay. He has spent a whole lot of time creating a narrative that he now has to unravel and retell from scratch, not that he expects there'll be much of a revelation about it for anyone else, aside from himself (sure, he'll admit to being a tiny bit surprised still, scratch that, try with bloody well shell-shocked, if you think about it). It is exactly as Sherlock said back then, having ripped his bloody clothes off at the swimming pool, people do little else, in fact. They talk. So let them hear him cheer.

Then, Sherlock leans down and kisses him. It's a different sort of kiss than the one(s) they exchanged the night before, less thirsty, less needy, but even so it's also longer. Slower. The other man's arm comes around his back, palm flattened against the small of it and pulling him closer and John steps forward well into Sherlock's intimate sphere without a moment's hesitation. He'll have to get used to this (not exactly a difficult feat, he'll say so much), the physicality of it when they're usually working in each their separate areas, Planet Sherlock and Planet John, right? Supposedly he's been bridging that distance from the get-go, though, and the kissing is just an additional perk that he'll gladly take.

Reaching up, he rests his right hand against the jut of Sherlock's hipbone, prominent even through layers of pajamas bottoms and bathrobe, because he needs the breakfast that John will go make him in approximately half a minute. He draws back from the kiss, exhales deeply and smiles. Doesn't move away, not immediately - he expects Sherlock will be the first to go, he always is. ]

So, hungry?

[ John draws back from the kiss and asks a stupid question but Sherlock lets it slide, lips feeling wet, almost over-stimulated. He shrugs lightly and steps away, out of John's reach for now, pulling his dressing gown closer around his body. He's not on a case, not particularly active and not particularly invested in keeping anything running. It'll run itself, his body, at least for a while (and hopefully, they won't be without a case much longer than that). He flops into his chair, the leather creaking slightly as he makes himself comfortable, shifting here and there, a tint of that hellish, inherent unrest making itself known already. He thinks about last night. Relaxes just a fraction, then remembers that John asked him a question. He cranes his neck, looking over at the other man. ]

Not especially. Tea would be fine.

[ He stretches out his legs. Lets his gaze slip away from John once again, wandering the ceiling aimlessly while he returns his thoughts to that curtain sample. Perhaps he'll be kind and text Lestrade the solution, though he did originally refuse to concern himself with the case; too unremarkable, completely commonplace. But possibly, just possibly, last night's left him in a somewhat more... charitable mood? Silly thought, that. Even if there's a chemical, stress-reducing effect associated with sexual pleasure, it's hardly going to affect you so many hours following the event. Perhaps he's just... not currently unhappy or overly bored.

Imagine that. ]

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